Oh, Happy Day Adventurers,
I had a dream tonight. It answered a few questions about life that have been on my mind. I know it wasn’t real. They were all answers my conscious made up, no matter how real they felt.
A victory came after I woke up. I had no desire to cry. Which made me realize something important,
I am healing
I am not bitter
I am hopeful
This year continues to be a struggle for me, yet these are a glimpse of the light.
I can tell my story.
It doesn’t make me cry every time, and one day it won’t make me cry at all. Life has a funny and sometimes painful way of teaching us lessons. We grow from them, we understand ourselves better, and hopefully, we remember them. I am hurt, I don’t want to feel the pain anymore, but I am healing. I have felt every inch of my life crashing little by little for nine long months. I am free now.
Some things that bring us great joy also bring us great suffering.
Here goes a great story on love:
I met a gentleman in his 90s. He smiled at me every time I saw him but never said a word. He finally told me why after asking. I reminded him of his late wife, who he had been married to for more than 50 years. She was a petite woman 5 feet and 110 lbs. It made me smile as I stood at the exact height and weight. She was kind, loving, and beautiful, he said.
In the end, she died from Alzheimer’s. He was proud of having taken care of her until her last day. They had a wonderful life together. She lived way into her 90s, having shared a long wonderful life. He would not help but miss her every day. He was sad she was gone but saw her in people every day and cherished the memories they shared. He was grateful for the time he had. I was happy to have reminded him of her those few days I took care of him.
He reminded me to enjoy being young, naive, hopeful. Enjoying people as they are in my life. To keep the memories that make me smile and to learn from the ones that don’t.
I will find my partner to spend 50 plus years with, to spend many years being happy, sad, enjoying victories, and comforting each other through losses. So that one day, I too may be in his place, smiling at strangers for the memories they help me remember. Grateful.
I learned an important lesson in love, our dreams in love are our own. We are on a search for the person who also has that dream. Not everyone we connect with is to share in that dream. Some people are here to love us for a moment in time. Enjoy falling in love, being in love, and let the stars do the rest. As time moves, the space between us gets smaller. It will all make sense in the end.
I don’t believe in coincidences. I met that man for a reason.
Today I have a victory.
Tomorrow is not guaranteed.
So I will take today to be the happiest woman in my world.
Take any small victory this week because it’s a sign that you are winning the war.
Happy Monday Adventurers
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